13 posts tagged “vc”
and i am just done tuckered out. it's my least favorite month, but nothing particularly bad has happened to me. yet...
i had a second-round interview for that job today, and i have mixed feelings about whether or not i want it. i know that other people interviewed for it too, but honestly, do i want to move? and work full-time for a humongous client that i currently can't care less about? one of the managing directors at work called me into his office right after my interview and told me that i can't leave and go work for that office, and that he is trying really hard to find me something permanent here in [grad school city]. he says he has yet to run into anyone at the company that has anything bad to say about me or my work, and that he is my biggest cheerleader--that he's been telling everyone that they'd be stupid not to snatch me up for their accounts. that's really nice. he'll have to work rather fast, tho, since they're making a decision on that other job by the end of this week. perhaps i won't get the offer and it will all be moot. said managing director has promised to find me something by may (when my fellowship period ends--i told him i won't be staying around, even if they agree to extend me yet again).
went to NYC for vday weekend, for TM's tongue-in-cheek valentine's day party (on fri the 13th). he went all out--i helped him bake and construct a red velvet cake "volcano", three-layer "chocolate-dipped strawberry" cookie/cakes, giant conversation-heart cakes, and there were also homemade filled chocolates, all on display on chocolate stands made by his pastry chef friend. it was a fabulous party, filled w/fabulous people (he and his grandma, who basically lives at columbus circle at the southwest corner of central park, co-hosted). the only snag was that he got food poisoning and ended up barfing fri morning...poor TM.
i got to see some college friends, which was great. VC and BD were also around all weekend, well at least until they left for vacation on sunday (BD's parents invited them along for a week in st. maarten). we went and did all-you-can eat sushi for vday dinner, which i justified b/c i went on a 6mi run in central park earlier in the day. and i got my NYC dim sum fix on sunday! but w/o dim sum dessert b/c we ran out of time. when did NYC stop having sales tax on clothing? i was so confused by my receipts.
it was a great weekend and i'm so glad that i went (and so glad that TM paid for my plane ticket b/c he is awesome). VC was super excited that perhaps i was over Che, since i was in NYC for the weekend. of course not! he was my long-distance valentine.
i told him i love him.
his response? i love you, so i just assumed that you loved me back. [wtf?!?!?!?! what kind of assumption is that?!!?!?!??]
we did not discuss the "in love w/ v. love" distinction.
he thinks that it was the weddingness of the weekend that got me all overwrought...i sort of agree. VC and BD had a beautiful wedding, and i got to give my first wedding toast ever (well, it was during the rehearsal dinner). other stuff later, but i am still recovering from little to no sleep and freaking out that Che and i now have to have a talk about the talk we had at 3am on friday morning...
BL and GL's wedding this weekend was beautiful. BL was the happiest i've ever seen her, the dress was beautiful, the food was delicious, and VC is probably going to wear her hair in an updo for her own wedding (the hairstylists did her bridesmaids hair really well). CCC brought her husband and her teeny weeny little boy (so cute!). i rented a car for the first time ever, and didn't crash it. AA and i went to lunch and caught up. HT and i shared a room at the swank hotel right across the street from campus, which meant that we could booze it up all weekend and i could run upstairs from the reception to change into more comfortable shoes. i'm totally glad that HT upgraded our rooms and then covered the additional cost. he's a real winner. he broke his ankle in july, and just got out of his cast, into one of those giant boot things. he was on crutches all weekend, but managed to make a detachable beer/bottle/beverage holder for his crutches out of a bracket, some wingnuts, and duct tape.
but alas, FM returned to his old ways. we hoped that the 5yrs he spent in a relationship would've reformed him for the better but apparently not. his ex still came to the wedding as his date (they shared a room, but nothing happened), and he decided to make out w/another girl in front of her, right there on the dance floor. granted, the ex *was* the one who broke up w/him, but it's still poor form. he even had the nerve to mention to me that he wasn't going to go after the girl that he eventually kissed. why? b/c IG was dancing w/her, and FM said that he refused to compete w/IG for girls. (i decided to humor FM and asked him what he meant. FM's reply: i've done it twice before, and i've won both times. [referring to me, and his most recent ex.]).
i, on the other hand, exercised good judgment this weekend. there were two of GL's high school friends who were interested in me, but i decided not to shack up w/either one of them.
maybe i'm innately good and FM is innately sleazy. wouldn't be that surprising!
today was also the first day of work at my fellowship. LONG first day, especially after a weekend of alcohol.
so i've submitted what should be the final draft of my master's thesis to my second reader, the subject matter expert. my first reader is sort of being an ass about responding to my emails and questions in a timely manner. maybe he doesn't realize that I WANT TO GRADUATE and i need him to sign off on my thesis and all of the forms so that i can get some more signatures and turn it all in by COB tomorrow. ugh.
this means that i am waiting for comments. hopefully i will get a thumbs up from both. and, i'm waiting for my bar results. that'll be until the first week of november when i'll hear that i FAILED!!! blah.
people are leaving, and i'm still here in [graduate school city]. JCG is selling her townhouse, and planning to move to [parents' city]. MB and CC are leaving for their cushy, high-paying jobs in [summer city] this week. they're working for the same firm, but in different areas. PC was in town for a few days, but he's also back in [summer city] by now. if only i could pick up and move somewhere random. but no, since i have no savings, i'd have to take another bar and wait for my results and find a job before i moved. if only i had the freedom some people have...one of the guys who was in bar class w/me this summer decided, on a whim, to move here after he graduated from law school. he has no connections here, and went to law school out of state. sort of ballsy. or maybe my sense of risk-taking is totally out of whack!
anyways, the plan is that if i pass the bar here in [current state] this fall, i'm going to start thinking about taking the bar for [fabulous state] in february. YS is headed out there for college in september, and OS will also be there for the rest of her residency, if she finishes the year where she is currently w/no major mishaps. she and the mother just spent 3wks in [parents' city] while she was on medical leave b/c she wasn't passing her current rotation.
sigh.
it's where OS and i went to elementary and middle school, and where YS was born. FB and PG are there, and VC and BD will probably move there w/in the next few years. oh, and Che is there, too. he's going to be at a wedding out of state the weekend i would've gone to see him so i won't be flying out there after all.
so i'm waiting for him to rack up enough frequent flyer miles to come visit me this fall, too.
Have you ever broken a bone? If not, what's the worst injury you've sustained?
[my first QOTD post! procrastination!]
i've never broken a bone. i have a penchant for spraining my ankles, however. the worst in recent memory was summer 2005, when i was leaving CCC's wedding to head to [eastern city] for IG's annual island party. at 5am in the morning as VC, HT, and i were leaving the guesthouse cottage at the resort to drive to the airport w/BL and GL, i slipped and did something nasty to my ankle, w/the added weight of all of my carry-on luggage. i ended up missing my flight, and got wheeled around in a wheelchair for a while. when i finally got to [eastern city], i went to the ER and spent 3hrs waiting to be seen/xrayed. i've never been in an ER before and it was a very surreal experience, surrounded by a lot of crazy people. turns out i had a bad sprain years ago b/c my xray showed a healed bone spur off of my ankle from a prior sprain. weird, considering that i didn't remember ever being in so much pain from a sprain, but i guess the added stress of travel didn't help. eventually, i got sent home w/an air cast and crutches! i had to leave the crutches in [eastern city]. i think they got tossed b/c none of my friends were short enough to keep them around for shits and giggles.
i also learned that it costs $15,000 to treat a sprained ankle if you have just switched insurance carriers and haven't seen your primary care physician back in your home state yet, therefore meaning that you're effectively uninsured when you walk into the ER b/c there is no referral. i think they got it all figured out eventually...i wonder if the resort ended up paying?
good times.
how long until you're supposed to know if the other person is "the one"?
BL + GL: met during their freshman year of college, fall 1999. GL had a long-distance girlfriend that he broke up w/for about 2 days, after he kissed BL. then he called his girlfriend back, guilt-stricken, and the girlfriend kept him on a very short leash for the next two, almost three years. he wasn't allowed to talk to BL, had daily scheduled AIM chats and phone calls w/the girlfriend, etc. BL + GL finally started dating senior year, fall 2002. after graduation, they moved in together and got engaged, christmas 2007. wedding, september 2008. JD + probable MBA.
VC + BD: met during his 2L year of law school, her 1L year of law school, fall 2005. stayed friends for a while and finally hooked up for the first time, new year's 2006-2007. he broke up w/the girl he was dating sometime later that month, and the two of them officially started dating at the end of january 2007. he moved in w/her and me in [summer city], while he studied for the bar, and they got engaged, august 2007. wedding, september 2008. JD + JD.
AO + his girlfriend: met each other on match.com, january 2008. he's a strange one, but somehow was able to juggle 3 women at once, but he let the other two go soon after meeting said girl. he went on a 2wk trip to thailand in february, started dating girl officially in early march. they moved in together may 2008. masters + ?
BM + PCG: went on their first date, october 2006. apparently they were the only 2 single people in their department and so it was natural that they would date. moved in together july 2007, got engaged july 2007, wedding july 2008. masters + expected PhD + masters + expected PhD.
my friend Chocolate Chip Cookie (CCC) + her husband: met while she was on break, either thanksgiving or winter break, our senior year of college, 2002. i honestly don't remember exactly when they got engaged, but i dragged my heels and got measured for my bridesmaid's dress february 2005, which means she probably asked me to be her bridesmaid in october or november 2004. wedding, july 2005. masters + expected PhD + probable masters.
a friend from law school + her husband: started HS together, and then she moved out of state and graduated somewhere else. didn't keep in touch during college, but they ended up at a wedding of a mutual friend sometime during 2L summer, 2006. started dating long distance fall 2006, he moved to [grad school city], she graduated and they moved in together in yet another state (for her new job) and they got engaged fall 2007. wedding june 2008, they now live in the state they started out in, as he is going to med school in the fall. i would've been at the wedding except that it was the same weekend as the college reunion. JD + projected MD.
so, apart from BL + GL, it's been less than a year for all of these happy couples from first date to some sort of serious decision. maybe all of these relationships won't last. but still, will things really be that fast? maybe it's a function of how driven my group of friends are. hm. every relationship involves at least 2 graduate degrees, w/the exception of GL (he is planning on going to business school in the next two years) and AO's girlfriend.
***EDIT: i got CCC's dates wrong. corrected above.
BL happened to be in town, last-minute, this weekend. i hadn't seen her since last summer, and her hair is entirely a different color these days. which is lighter than it had been...her mother thinks that it's too dark to get married w/ (?) and so BL has been gradually lightening it. she's been pseudo-blonde for a few years now, so it's strange to see her hair color close to her eyebrow shade. but it's not bad.
she stayed overnight w/me so we had a little time to talk and catch up. she has always been, and always will be, the soccer mom of our college group of friends. she is good at managing people and things, even tho she doesn't like doing it...but somehow she always gets herself into those situations. she and GL didn't have a very romantic engagement. sounded very practical. her ring is nice and big, tho.
she's worried about VC's wedding. so am i. she wants to know why i'm still talking to Che. so do i.
it's so weird how through the years, some things never change.
i fail at life. i am really behind on my thesis, i will not graduate in may if i don't get my thesis done in time, i still don't have a job, i have to pass a licensing exam before i can even work, and the place i'm working at right now may not keep me on after graduation/through the summer. i ended up crying in the car tonight, when i was dropping my friend BW (braless wonder) off after an etiquette dinner. we were talking about her recent serious life conversation w/her fiance, and then we somehow got on the topic of this post-grad fellowship award that i applied for and did not get. that, in combination w/the most recent "you're pretty great but you're not awesome enough for this job" notification and the fact that i am really burning out on graduate school, made me burst into tears. it was embarrassing.
and i can't help but think that things would be so much better if i had a real man right now.
I JUST WANT TO GET MARRIED. is that so wrong? i don't want a fling w/a guy who forgets to pay his phone bill (hello and goodbye, NM), i don't want to be exchanging flirty messages w/a graphic designer dude on myspace, i don't want to be pursued by guys. i just want Che. it's b/c i'm so stressed out w/the thesis and thinking about my jobless prospects that i want a man, i know; but still, when he tells me on the phone that he will get me a wiener dog and send me some shoes and hire me as his secretary if i really can't find a job, it makes me feel a tiny bit better.
well, i suppose any attractive guy that i have physical/emotional/intellectual chemistry w/, who makes somewhere in the high fives, or six figures, would be nice right now. i would only mooch for as long as necessary. all i need to do is graduate and pass that licensing exam, so that i can start looking for my perfect job. well, i guess i may have to take another exam if i move to a different state. if only Che would import me to [fabulous city's state]. i could make him happy.
maybe tomorrow i will feel better and not have incredibly paternalistic/sexist related fantasies on my mind. it's possible that i will go back to being happily attractive and single. but i have to say that watching all of the videoclips on VC's videographer's page last night didn't help. happy smiley couples who are totally in love for now and forever? i want that too, along w/my wiener dog and patent yellow peep toe wedges.
VC called me tonight, and she and BD are engaged! i was the first non-family member to find out.
also, CS is leaving me very detailed voicemails, as if he's afraid that he's going to get into trouble if i don't know exactly what's going on. i don't know if i should be pleased or worried.
CS arrived on friday evening, and just left to fly back to [grad school city] this morning. he called me a few hours ago to let me know that he got in safely, and i already miss him.
but it's not the sad, empty, achey hole kind of miss-ness that i usually get for guys. i didn't feel an overwhelming urge to cry when i left him at the airport, and i honestly wanted to say goodbye so that i could say hello again, if that makes any sense. if this visit is any indication, things (and by things i mean the terms of our "arrangement") may change (and by change, i mean, be an improvement upon those of this past spring) when i return to [grad school city] in 3wks.
overall, the visit was very very good. i got a lot of affection and attention from someone that i have been missing for the past 6wks. it was also extremely stressful, however, b/c of the deadlines and work i put off in order to make CS my priority while he was here. physically, i'm spent from being out and about and sleeping w/someone else in my bed; emotionally, i'm spent from trying to rationalize to myself that it's okay that this guy who was nothing but amazingly sweet and wonderful this weekend is single and so am i. for all intents and purposes, we looked like an official couple this weekend. it's very difficult not to read into the little comments he made off and on all weekend long.
on the phone today, he expressed regret that he couldn't have stayed longer...perhaps a week. i don't think i could've handled a full week of all CS, all of the time; i had a mini-meltdown on sunday while he went for a run outside, and i ended up going downstairs to the gym in the basement of our building where i cried my heart out to VC. hopefully that's the first and last time it will happen this summer.
