5 posts tagged “jms”

but so far it's just the same old same old. i'm not sad, i'm not awesomely happy, either.

the boring run-down of my life:

on the man front:
so w/the recent deaths of the kennedy clan, i can't but think of Che. i wonder if he went to the funeral, or if he stayed in [fabulous city] while his kennedy attended. i've avoided the media coverage b/c i don't want to be reminded of him. how lame is that?

on the friend front:
IG had his island weekend earlier this month, and i went. it was a lot of fun, but things were noticeably calmer than usual, b/c everyone was in a relationship or paired off. there were 14 of us and HT and i were paired off, even tho i ended up sharing a room w/IG's ex-girlfriend. nothing crazy happened, w/the exception of a fight between BL and GL. but that's to be expected b/c he gets trashed and she usually takes offense to something he does or says; this time it was b/c she found his hidden stash of "snus".

they're nearing their first anniversary, and they recently bought a condo in [eastern city]. i was their first non-family guest in their new guest room! exciting.

JMS + wife had already bought a condo and were living together before they got married. FM just bought a condo, too, and his girlfriend is moving in.

i need to stop comparing myself to my friends. i need to stop thinking about how i am single and (although not unhappy about it) how i need to find a guy.

i'm headed to new orleans for labor day, w/TM. i'm assuming AA isn't coming b/c she didn't get back to me w/her travel itinerary. TM and i decided on new orleans before we found out that labor day weekend is "southern decadence" in NOLA, also known as "gay mardi gras". TM has promised not to abandon me for a random gay dude, so hopefully we'll do a lot of eating and drinking and perhaps i'll find a straight guy and kissyface at some point.

both EW and D&G were recently in town (but separately), and stayed w/me. apparently i've gotten more assertive since i moved to [northern city] (or so they tell me). i think it's b/c i'm less used to the day-to-day drama and therefore less inclined to take people's shit. the last time i was in [grad school city] CB and i got into a long, extended, late-night conversation about--what else--girls and of course it didn't go anywhere. oh, and TR is dating someone seriously enough to make it known on facebook, but she looks sort of dorky (later confirmed by D&G). i am totally hotter. but he's getting ass and i'm not. damn.

on the family front:
YS officially has a boyfriend. he's someone she met at nerd camp two summers ago, and they ended up at different colleges but still kept in touch. they've been together for a while, but she's only been comfortable w/the titles of boyfriend-girlfriend recently. OS has started dating in her internship city, and I AM OFFICIALLY THE SINGLEST SISTER FOR THE FIRST TIME IN A LONG TIME. so depressing.

on the work front:
i still have a crush on SFC. we went out for bar trivia tonight (and won, natch) and i really just wanted to sit in his lap and kissyface.

blah. i need another distraction.

there are other posts i've been meaning to write but i just keep putting them off. b/c i can b/c this is my blog and i'm allowed to be a slacker.

but not necessarily unhappy about either.

wedding was great! JMS and Mrs. JMS are perfect for each other, and it shows. we got personalized ketchup bottles as wedding favors!

i didn't boot, didn't do anything i'm ashamed of, and totally passed up totally-inappropriate-dancing/kissy-face/who-knows-what-else w/a tall, dark and could-be-handsome dude. he was just a bit too awkward. but he's really really smart. i think he was a physics major in college (graduated my year) and is now a risk manager for some big ol' bank in NYC. he cornered me to talk about the supreme court, nominee sonia sotomayor, the firemen case, and such for 15min during the hors d'oeuvres/cocktail hour and then followed me around on the dance floor afterwards. woo woo go me. he left the afterparty before the majority of us did, and came to talk to me at the bar but then cut himself off by saying "but [omphaloskepsist], you're already spoken for--" which i totally didn't understand b/c i was sharing a room w/HT but we're totally not together and everyone should know that! oh well. it wasn't like i was going to hit that up anyway.

what else did i do--hung out w/FM's new-ish girlfriend some more. i asked BL at some point why she's dating him [b/c she met him for the first time at BL's wedding where he was totally inappropriate in front of his ex-girlfriend] and this is her response: 1) b/c she doesn't know any better and 2) they're both halfies, so they have a lot in common. i do like her better than ex-girlfriend b/c she at least has personality. we caught them going into the women's restroom (for who knows what!) at the wedding afterparty. ha!

i also did my ex-roomie duty and took HT shopping after the wedding. he has just gotten back from a 6mo sabbatical in central america, and is going back to work in [summer city] for a few months before he leaves for australia. he's giving himself a total of a year off and is then probably going to move to [eastern city] to be closer to his family and the whole college crowd.

IG has also invited me for the island party so i'm trying to figure out if it's w/in my finances to fly up there in the middle of august. i'm already going on a 4-day trip to new orleans w/TM and perhaps AA for labor day weekend [a city we picked prior to learning that it will be the weekend of SOUTHERN DECADENCE which is, according to its website, the "gay mardi gras" so who knows what we will be in for] so i'm trying to minimize vacation days.

work is work (which kept me from posting about last weekend) and i spent 8hrs today hanging out w/SFC during a work training which got me going back and forth again on whether i think he's cute and whether i have a crush on him or not. i like him better clean-shaven [check] and also in non-work-attire [uncheck, and i really don't like the majority of his ties]. but i was getting seriously heated up sitting next to him and staring at his wrists. WTF? i caught him looking at me a couple of times for no real reason, while the speaker was in a totally different direction and we weren't discussing/brainstorming anything, and i'm assuming that's b/c i'm hot and sexy.

a whole lot of random nothingness, that is my life right now.

what i did determine over last weekend is that i miss the east coast. and my friends in [eastern city]. and [eastern city]. something about summer in new england always gets me...argh! what am i doing here???

need to make more friends here in [northern city] and get back to the gym. want to find some hot guys. would like some kissy-face.

sigh.

and i forgot that i wasn't supposed to answer.

damnit.

in other news, apparently i am the only ex- of JMS's that is invited to the wedding b/c i am the only one that the bride-to-be can stand. that's a good thing b/c she's pretty cool.

is it too much to ask that i get some action (at the very least, some kissy-face) at the wedding this weekend? i know that nothing like that ever happens when one is looking for it so i'm trying to be happy being single and such but COME ON it has been a month since i've gotten any funny business and who knows when will be the next time i will feel comfortable enough in my element to do something stupid. i'm generally satisfied w/my attractiveness and man-luring abilities, but that's b/c i always had a fall-back (not like Che was my back-up plan or anything, but i had that bit of confidence there). well i guess i still sort of have it. he mentioned something about how there are people he knows that don't like me b/c of the pain and grief i caused him and then he refused to elaborate on it.

but overall, i've never gotten any action at a wedding before. so it's not like i'm cursing myself or breaking some sort of streak (unless you count the non-lovin as a streak).

i shouldn't try too hard, tho, b/c bad decisions are, well, bad decisions.

and look! no tears! yet. just a small amount of bemusement.

another one of my friends from high school found me on facebook. and she's engaged. it's all the more shocking to me b/c my family moved away from [high school state] while i was in college, and i haven't seen said friend since 2002, when i lived w/her one summer and she took me to get my navel pierced. back then she had 7 piercings and was definitely positively single--she hadn't an official boyfriend yet, just casual hookups. and now she's getting married???

okay okay it was seven years ago. but still?!?!?

so many people are taking that big step, choosing to link themselves with another--if not always for the rest of their lives, at least w/that intention.

in light of this month's events, i honestly can't imagine that kind of commitment to anyone else right now...yet i want to be married. it's like i can't even think about the steps between.

and it makes me tear up. it's also just about my time of the month. that's my partial excuse.

i'm headed to JMS's wedding next month. hopefully i won't totally burst into tears at some inopportune moment.

agh.  i know that this happens to many 20-somethings, and even more 30-somethings...but i just heard that another one of my friends from college, JMS (john mayer singer) is now engaged.  i'm the one that introduced him to the "more than just kissing" aspects of making out w/someone.  he told me once that i was a turning point in his life.  he also used john mayer's "your body is a wonderland" as a really bad line.  i laughed, in his face, if i recall correctly.

at least HT, the friend that told me, isn't getting married anytime soon.

i know that i'm not all that old, but still, i can't help thinking that i won't be married by 30 and this scares me.  yes, it's a stupid number, chosen somewhat arbitrarily, but as i get older, the more other prospective brides that are younger than me accumulate.  what if there isn't just one guy out there?  what if my desirability is slowly waning?  even if i have yet to reach my peak, i'm all that much closer to the inevitable slump-age and sagginess of body parts in general.  men age so much better than women do.

i'm going to my college's 5yr reunion in a few weeks...if i can fight through the pain of spending an ungodly amount of money on the plane tickets.  there will be lots of married people there, and even some kids.  one of my good friends from college is preggers.  AND SO MANY OF THEM ARE ENGAGED!!!  i am afraid to fill out the surveymonkey survey b/c i don't want people to know that i am single, but i guess everyone pretty much knows b/c i'm not bringing a guest to reunion.  i was going to ask Che if he wanted me to register for him b/c he is sort of not in our class (he graduated a year late) but that would've made things weird b/c it's not like we're officially together or anything at all right now but it would've saved him money b/c he never does things on time and now if he registers he is paying $55 more than i did.

he mentioned the possibility of just being a reunion interloper.  he also is gagging over the cost of plane tickets, but i told him sweetie, you have a FULL TIME JOB.

maybe he won't even register.  maybe he won't even be there.  what can i say, i don't trust him.