23 posts tagged “cb”
but so far it's just the same old same old. i'm not sad, i'm not awesomely happy, either.
the boring run-down of my life:
on the man front:
so w/the recent deaths of the kennedy clan, i can't but think of Che. i wonder if he went to the funeral, or if he stayed in [fabulous city] while his kennedy attended. i've avoided the media coverage b/c i don't want to be reminded of him. how lame is that?
on the friend front:
IG had his island weekend earlier this month, and i went. it was a lot of fun, but things were noticeably calmer than usual, b/c everyone was in a relationship or paired off. there were 14 of us and HT and i were paired off, even tho i ended up sharing a room w/IG's ex-girlfriend. nothing crazy happened, w/the exception of a fight between BL and GL. but that's to be expected b/c he gets trashed and she usually takes offense to something he does or says; this time it was b/c she found his hidden stash of "snus".
they're nearing their first anniversary, and they recently bought a condo in [eastern city]. i was their first non-family guest in their new guest room! exciting.
JMS + wife had already bought a condo and were living together before they got married. FM just bought a condo, too, and his girlfriend is moving in.
i need to stop comparing myself to my friends. i need to stop thinking about how i am single and (although not unhappy about it) how i need to find a guy.
i'm headed to new orleans for labor day, w/TM. i'm assuming AA isn't coming b/c she didn't get back to me w/her travel itinerary. TM and i decided on new orleans before we found out that labor day weekend is "southern decadence" in NOLA, also known as "gay mardi gras". TM has promised not to abandon me for a random gay dude, so hopefully we'll do a lot of eating and drinking and perhaps i'll find a straight guy and kissyface at some point.
both EW and D&G were recently in town (but separately), and stayed w/me. apparently i've gotten more assertive since i moved to [northern city] (or so they tell me). i think it's b/c i'm less used to the day-to-day drama and therefore less inclined to take people's shit. the last time i was in [grad school city] CB and i got into a long, extended, late-night conversation about--what else--girls and of course it didn't go anywhere. oh, and TR is dating someone seriously enough to make it known on facebook, but she looks sort of dorky (later confirmed by D&G). i am totally hotter. but he's getting ass and i'm not. damn.
on the family front:
YS officially has a boyfriend. he's someone she met at nerd camp two summers ago, and they ended up at different colleges but still kept in touch. they've been together for a while, but she's only been comfortable w/the titles of boyfriend-girlfriend recently. OS has started dating in her internship city, and I AM OFFICIALLY THE SINGLEST SISTER FOR THE FIRST TIME IN A LONG TIME. so depressing.
on the work front:
i still have a crush on SFC. we went out for bar trivia tonight (and won, natch) and i really just wanted to sit in his lap and kissyface.
blah. i need another distraction.
there are other posts i've been meaning to write but i just keep putting them off. b/c i can b/c this is my blog and i'm allowed to be a slacker.
update: IG is off-limits, b/c (as i only seem to remember once i see him in person) it's too much work to try to get anything started w/him. also, he is in some strange love-triangle w/an ex and a new interest. at least i know he respects my editing prowess (i looked over his best man's speech for him).
other guy i thought perhaps i would have an opportunity w/is apparently thinking about buying a house (in the suburbs!) w/his serious girlfriend (when did this happen???).
i had a long conversation w/HT (we are sharing a hotel room) on the drive to the wedding location (i flew in a day early to hang out w/him, GL, BL, FM, IG and other assorted people) about love and marriage and relationships. we established the wide-ranging applicability of "[s]he's just not that into you" and talked about scores and scales (reminiscent of CB). also, the immaturity of certain friends (ahem, FM and everyone else who let him do it or egged him on) who put HT in a relationship on Facebook the night of JMS's bachelor party (i discovered it a few days ago by Facebook-stalking HT. suffice to say he's still upset about it).
i thought i'd perhaps get to hang out w/PG and FB who are also attending a wedding but in a neighboring state this weekend, but our two attempts so far have fallen flat.
trying to decide what to do w/my day. do work b/c goodness knows i have a shitton to do? go for a run w/the bride-to-be? go to the gym? attempt to find FM's girlfriend and get breakfast? go shopping? chill out by the pool and catch up on back issues of "lucky, the magazine about shopping"? i just have to be back mid-afternoon to shuttle groomsmen (and women, as BL is a groomslady) to the church. perhaps i should start getting myself psyched for the dinner, at which i may end up sitting at a table w/unfortunate drooling single losers (i was bumped from a table w/HT and some other college people by aforementioned "other guy"'s girlfriend (the ones who are thinking of buying a house together) who has decided to come). HT says that there are 7 single girls at the wedding--the bride-to-be didn't tell him how many single guys are going to be in attendance. i know of at least two that i will definitely not be doing anything w/b/c i knew them from college and they are still unfortunate.
all in all, an exhausting weekend w/little sleep. so far i've cleaned out HT's closet, consumed large amounts of alcohol, and have not really mingled w/guests of the wedding that i don't know--this does not bode well for my chances of finding a cute single guy to kissy-face w/. at least i don't have to wear spanx w/my dress tonight!
i talked to CB immediately after my conversation w/Che, and we talked about his girl issues and my guy issues and he told me that he had never tried dating me (whatever that means) b/c i was too intimidating. i know that i do intimidate some guys but he said it was, specifically, b/c i am so smart and good w/my hands. this is not the first time i have gotten the hands comment.
so that was nice.
yay 27!
and:
-paying my student loans
-figuring out what to do w/the traffic ticket i got for accidentally running a red light behind CB b/c i couldn't see over the UHaul.
in the last 3 weeks i have: driven to [northern city] twice (once w/D&G and once w/CB), flown to [summer city] to spend a week meeting my new direct boss, and am now attempting to finish packing by 3pm so that my friends and i can load the uhaul and CB and i can drive to [northern city] so that i can make it to work on monday.
nevermind that i won't be able to get the keys to my new place (i only signed the lease on friday, via fax) until monday, that the gas won't be set up until monday, and that the electricity won't be turned on until tuesday.
or the fact that i'll have to get a morning report out to my direct boss by 630am on monday morning.
omg. awesome. thank goodness i have such awesome friends who have helped me pack this weekend. the only problem is, they haven't consumed all of the beer that i purchased for them to drink.
long pre-labor day day. went kayaking, then to a minor league baseball game, then attempted to go drinking, and now D&G is passed out on an aerobed on my living room floor.
kayaking happened b/c D&G wanted to do something water-related (she's about to leave to spend the semester in Russia working for a government agency) and CB's parents live about an hour away, on the river. D&G and CB drove in one car, and EW and i followed in another. on the way there, EW mentioned that she doesn't know CB very well, and only hears about him when i'm complaining about the last thing he's done that annoys me. i, feeling bad, did say that he's a very good friend if he's not interested in you romantically, or isn't talking about his girl-crazy ways.
and it's true. his parents own 3 kayaks, so he took EW to rent another one, and set them all up. he took EW's shitty rented kayak so that she could use one of his parents', and then tried to pay for half of it. he also let us leave early (D&G and i had to get back early for the game) and returned the other kayak and cleaned everything up for us.
he is nothing if not considerate, helpful, and patient when it comes to doing things for his friends.
but he is always going to be a linty ball of darkness, deep down inside. RND [un-]officially broke things off w/him in july, and now they can't be in the same room together (she is probably the first girl to actually break up w/him and not the other way around). he has told her that she is not welcome at events which his friends invite her to, b/c they were his friends first. they apparently send each other emails so that he can make sure that they won't see each other. this morning, while we were waiting for our pre-kayaking breakfast tacos, D&G happened to mention RND (she had been staying at RND's house this past week, while she was visiting people here] and CB stormed out of the place b/c he didn't want to even hear her name.
his insecurities are forcing D&G and others to feel like they are in a custody battle. he says he's enforcing this ban b/c he doesn't want her to get upset at him, but it's actually b/c he can't stand being around someone who ended things w/him and who is currently dating someone else.
it's so immature. and it's going to make our formerly-girls-only rock band party tomorrow (that EW inadvertently invited CB to) rather awkward tomorrow.
CB is girl-less at the moment. RND and "the girl that got away," GTGA, have become friends and are hanging out more w/each other, making him the third wheel. RND is also distancing herself from CB.
this is all good. but honestly, CB will just find some other girl(s) to obsess over in the near future, and work himself into yet another drama-heavy, slightly awkward situation so that he can feel more alone and apart from the rest of the normal world.
CB is whining about it a little. i think he wants me to pry some more so that he can unburden his soul but i'm not biting. maybe later this week as a study break. he should have to buy me dinner!
right now i am very angry at JCG. and angry at myself.
i, along with some other soon-to-be graduates, went to an alumni reception at a fancy hotel downtown. i ended up drinking a bit too much and, after driving myself and CC to dinner, proceeded to "pass out" in JCG's lap. the extra glass of wine SSM bought me at the restaurant while we waited for our table just sped things up. i spent some time on the floor of the men's bathroom, before JCG and SSM hauled me out (barefoot, b/c somehow i lost my shoes) and placed me in JCG's car. when i protested, saying that my car was still at the restaurant, JCG snapped at me and told me that i should just call a cab in the morning to get it. she drove me back to my house but we determined that the keys to my house were in the trunk of my car. so, she then tried to drag me out of the car and make me lie on the porch b/c she didn't want me throwing up in her car. i spent 5min arguing w/her b/c i didn't want to be left alone and i told her i wouldn't puke (i have a delayed puking mechanism). finally, she drove back to the restaurant to get my keys, and on the way over, took $20 out of my purse to pay for my food (which i did not eat and everyone else at the table consumed), and called and told everyone that i was going to pay for dessert to make up for it. at this point i was semi-comatose. we got back to my house and i limped in and fell down on the floor in the living room. i don't remember much else, except that i spent the hours from 230am to 11am throwing up.
when i checked my phone in the morning, JCG had texted me to say that i owed everyone else $40. so at this point, i didn't have my shoes, i had no car, and i had no cash to pay for a cab to get back to the restaurant. and i apparently was going to pay a grand total of $60 for a meal i did not consume. how do 5 people end up w/a $40 bill for dessert? by each ordering something and making it the most expensive item on the dessert menu? after eating my pizza? wtf.
D&G was nice enough to pick me up and drive me to my car. and then i bought her lunch, but i volunteered.
now, i'm angry for a number of reasons.
***i'm angry at myself for drinking to excess. drinking 5 glasses of wine on a plate and a half of hors d'oeuvres (sp?) is a really really dumb thing for a short asian female w/a low tolerance to do.
1) JCG gets really mean to me when she thinks i've had too much to drink. she bitched me out for getting sloshed at my housewarming party, and after i, mortified, asked around to see if i had really been a hot mess, found out that i had been totally fine in everyone else's estimation, she did back down a bit. nevermind that she loves "drunk [omphaloskepsist]" and this is the first time i've gotten sloppy in the entirety of our acquaintance. (and she didn't even see me puke!!!)
2) last time she got sloppy and puked all over the place, i took care of her and never bitched her out or berated her or told you "i told you so."
3) i was going to offer to pay for her meal and maybe part of SSM's b/c of my drunken behavior, but where does she get off volunteering me to pay for everyone? they each get $12 b/c i ruined their night? to my best recollection, i did not do any of the following: make a scene, throw up on people, curse at people, or throw things at people. no one at the restaurant ever asked me to leave.
4) WTF. $40 on dessert???
5) someone told MB and i don't know who.
i called her today to ask her a question about graduation (tomorrow) but also to say that we needed to discuss what happened last night. she was on her way to the airport to pick up her sister (the one w/the asshole [soon-to-be-ex-?] husband), so she said that it wasn't a good time to talk. i guess we'll talk later this weekend.
no matter how outrageous i might've been (and i wasn't b/c no one told me to stop drinking or questioned my behavior until i started feeling ill at the restaurant...except for MB but that was back at the reception b/c he didn't go to dinner), i don't think JCG treated me very well. maybe i don't remember enough, but when i talked to CC on gchat today, he didn't say that my behavior was awful or anything like that. i think that for some strange reason JCG is harder on me than anyone else in terms of drinking and subsequent behavior. and it's terribly unfair. she is one of my closest friends here in [grad school city] and i would never have thought that anyone would've treated me the way that she did, last night. i can't even imagine it. especially since i have never been in that position w/her before (not like it's an excuse, but it's not like she can say that she is sick and tired of my behavior or something). for someone who has been amazingly supportive when it comes to boy issues and my thesis drama of earlier this spring, i'm just baffled by her response last night. i've been there for her. why did she treat me like an annoyance and a burden last night?
some other things that anger me:
1) my mother and OS will not be coming to graduation tomorrow, b/c OS is supposed to graduate from her graduate program on sunday and is still working to finish everything up. they are definitely not coming to my first (morning) graduation ceremony, but might be able to make it to the ceremony for my second graduate degree. i know that OS is working as hard as she can and has severe obstacles to overcome, but i can't help but think that my mother has placed OS first for so long now. yes, i'm a horrible person for saying this. at least i'm not vocalizing it to anyone.
2) CB and RND are too cuddly for a couple that is no longer a couple. it's ridiculous. and he invited the other girl over to hang out again! at least it wasn't my house this time. it was BW and her fiance's house. CB is just an emotionally manipulative jerk and i am getting more and more fed up w/him.
3) no matter how much i want it to happen, i am still not officially graduating this may. i'm afraid that i will end up breaking into tears at some point tomorrow, during one or both of the ceremonies, as the frustration gets to be too much.
basic manners: shouldn't we all have them?
a friend of mine from high school, SA (snarky asian), visited me this weekend. she has never been to [current state], so we basically did an eating tour of [grad school city] and i do believe she had a good time. i, however, am probably worse for wear. i finished my last final (8hr takehome) at 4pm on friday, and promptly began drinking at 430pm. the only thing i ate all day was a pita w/some hummus, and then 3 onion rings and a handful of fried okra while drinking.
not such a good idea. i didn't do any booting, but friday night was not a fun night.
especially after factoring in the amount of food and booze i ingested this weekend, i may need to fast for the rest of the week in order to fit into my graduation outfit (seersucker dress and suit jacket) for pseudo-graduation this saturday (i'm walking in the ceremonies for both of my graduate degrees, even tho i am not graduating until august, when i finish my thesis, fingers crossed).
the most annoying thing about my weekend, however, was CB's behavior. a group of us went out to dinner on saturday night and came back to my house to lie on the floor and digest. we ended up watching a movie, and 2/3 of the way in, i got a knock on my door. turns out CB invited over one of his quasi-paramours w/o telling me. she was only supposed to stop by so that she could get him and they could leave. she ended up staying until the end of the movie, and was hanging out w/us a little more, but it was still awkward...adding the fact that CB's ex-girlfriend, RND (russian nesting dolls) was over, too, and that CB and RND drove to dinner/my house together.
CB sent me an email the next day apologizing (sort of) for inviting the other girl over w/o telling me about it. we're acquaintances, so i'm not really fussed about it. but his lame-ass excuse? "i started saying something about it but then everyone else was talking and no one heard me, and i'm easily discouraged so i didn't say anything."
OMG. grow some balls.
that's great, you invited a girl over while you were hanging out/cuddling w/RND, and it's not like RND could leave separately b/c you two drove to my house together. you were rude in many different ways: 1) to me, for inviting someone over unannounced; 2) to the girl, b/c you put her in an awkward situation; and 3) to RND b/c you came w/her and you were going to leave? apparently BW, the ever-so-tactful girl that she is, asked CB a few days ago, point-blank: "so are you and RND still fucking?" CB's response: "i will neither confirm nor deny."
i like RND. she's sweet. and i don't know why she's still putting up w/CB's needy emotionally manipulative shit. [well actually, i do. RND's not totally innocent, b/c she fucked over her most recent ex, and D&G doesn't trust RND and CB together b/c they hid their relationship from her for 3mos.] even SA picked up on it, in the short time she was here visiting me.
ugh.
i don't think i like TR enough to be engaging in the funny business w/him. i appreciated the fact that he got me a vday present and wrote me a poem (it's so cute), but he publicly proclaimed his affection for me on a social networking site and that was a little embarrassing. i didn't tell him that, but we had a talk last night after the funny business and i said we should stop, b/c we jumped into it so quickly...but this morning i reconsidered and convinced him that we could stop after today.
is it bad to be annoyed that he doesn't try harder to spend money on me? it's pretty shallow, i know. i guess i just got used to CS paying for everything.
i was at a party w/CB and others last night (i think one of CB's friends has a crush on me...i've noticed that he will stare at me if i'm in his vicinity) and got CB to tell me all sorts of complimentary things about me. it's shallow to fish for compliments, but he likes giving them. it's part of his girl-crazy nature.
i'm going to call Che later today and apologize for being so short on the phone...he called when TR was here and i had to get off of the phone really quickly. will have to make up some sort of story. ugh. this takes too much effort. i hope that he doesn't get paranoid and cancel his trip. or is that me being antsy?
