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agh. i know that this happens to many 20-somethings, and even more 30-somethings...but i just heard that another one of my friends from college, JMS (john mayer singer) is now engaged. i'm the one that introduced him to the "more than just kissing" aspects of making out w/someone. he told me once that i was a turning point in his life. he also used john mayer's "your body is a wonderland" as a really bad line. i laughed, in his face, if i recall correctly.
at least HT, the friend that told me, isn't getting married anytime soon.
i know that i'm not all that old, but still, i can't help thinking that i won't be married by 30 and this scares me. yes, it's a stupid number, chosen somewhat arbitrarily, but as i get older, the more other prospective brides that are younger than me accumulate. what if there isn't just one guy out there? what if my desirability is slowly waning? even if i have yet to reach my peak, i'm all that much closer to the inevitable slump-age and sagginess of body parts in general. men age so much better than women do.
i'm going to my college's 5yr reunion in a few weeks...if i can fight through the pain of spending an ungodly amount of money on the plane tickets. there will be lots of married people there, and even some kids. one of my good friends from college is preggers. AND SO MANY OF THEM ARE ENGAGED!!! i am afraid to fill out the surveymonkey survey b/c i don't want people to know that i am single, but i guess everyone pretty much knows b/c i'm not bringing a guest to reunion. i was going to ask Che if he wanted me to register for him b/c he is sort of not in our class (he graduated a year late) but that would've made things weird b/c it's not like we're officially together or anything at all right now but it would've saved him money b/c he never does things on time and now if he registers he is paying $55 more than i did.
he mentioned the possibility of just being a reunion interloper. he also is gagging over the cost of plane tickets, but i told him sweetie, you have a FULL TIME JOB.
maybe he won't even register. maybe he won't even be there. what can i say, i don't trust him.
